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Friday, June 9th, 2006
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8:29 pm
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Wow, I haven't updated in a while...I've turned to Xanga (shame). Uhh nothing to say, just sleepy and in a mood for icons. Hmm. I'll be better, I promise, I'll return to my livejournal ways.
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| Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
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11:33 am
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I am insane...schizo I think. And did I mention I hate school, well Math, to put it simply. And I do math for 12 hours a week! Shoot me.
On a happier note, I watched Harry Potter 4, at long last. Good movie, and I have decided now, more than ever Chris Colombus should be shot for murdering the first two movies.
current mood:  bouncy
current music: Haruke Kanata- Asian Kung Fu Generation
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| Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
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4:42 pm
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I would just like to comment on the healing powers of cartoons...well anime anyways. I mean what else but a tedious marathon of naruto and trigun could bring one out of such a depression?
I'm thinking of changing my layout...I realise that without ranting about the sucky people I have nothing to say. Terrible ne?
current music: Viva Rock- Orange Range
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| Sunday, October 16th, 2005
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11:05 pm
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So here I am again, only now...too late I realise, that I forgot to whine about the cruelty of animals at Thanksgiving. I don't feel much like it now, though I hope you are all seriously reconsidering your cannabalistic ways.
Due to my starvation techniques, my left side is now killing me. I have no idea what it is, but it hurts like hell. But I lost 4 pounds, so it quells the pain a bit.
I'm still writing my fanfictions, but due to the fact that I have NO spare time anymore, its a bit difficult.
Your appendix is on your right side...isn't it. Owwww.
Talk later I suppose.
current mood:  hungry
current music: Karma Carmeleon-Boy George And The Culture Club
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| Monday, October 10th, 2005
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4:52 pm
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Is anyone surprised that I'm here to whine about thanksgiving. Didn't think so. I'm a vegan (whopee!) so of course the mindless slaughter of farm animals hurts a part in my soul. But of course watching everyone else around me ingest calories upon calories made me feel worse.
Why do I care so much about food? It's useless, and except for survival it's useless as wel.. I don't associate food with pleasure, I associate it with flabby thighs and stretch marks.
So WHY did it bother me that everyone else got to eat except me? Feeling left out perhaps, maybe...
current mood:  indifferent
current music: I Wannna Dance With Somebody- Whitney (before Bobby)
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| Saturday, October 1st, 2005
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12:11 am
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Back to the insane ramblings of an anorexic teen. You know I should seek help for my problem...I already tried actually, well my mom did, well that was a waste of 2 grand, better spent on a new car or something.
I hate myself. Yes, I know, how very 17 of me. But for the moment there's no other emotion.
I'm changing.
I'm ususally always hating my birthdays to come around. But for once I can't wait. Why? When I'm 18 I can buy trim spa!
Whoopee!
Why so cynical today? Well I was doing homework doing my study period. And then here prances a teacher...I made a comment about being tired, and that *insert comparison to a mule here* has the gaul to tell me I need exercise.
Now maybe...maybe in teacher land this is an okay comment to tell a teenaged girl...maybe. I suppose that normal kids might have just laughed it off. But instead I stalked off to the toilets and rammed a pen down my throat. Did I feel better. God no. So I keyed the heffer's car.
Like I said, I am 17.
And then adults have have the grand idea to wonder why there are so many girls with eating disorders...why we have such low self esteems, tell me. I run 2 miles every Saturday, I lift weights, for God's sake I eat 500 calories a day.
And I'm still FAT! Or at least that's what she thinks.
I hate myself. I can't do anything right. Shouldn't she be fired. She's a threat to my health after all.
And then, feeling particularly angry, I asked a guy nest to me if I looked THAT out of shape...he said not really, and made I face.
God I love my freaking life.
I stayed entraced for the rest of the day of thoughts of taking a knife and peeling the fat from my bone.
current mood:  angry
current music: Natasha Bedingfield- These Words
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| Saturday, September 24th, 2005
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10:59 am - I Don't Care How You Do It
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I am so embarassed, once again, I've become an anorexic. It's been a year since my last relapse. and I had hoped I was cured, no such luck.
Height- 5'7
Age- 17
CW- 132
HW- 150
LW-125
GW-115
Measurements-
Bust-34
Waist- 27
Arse- 38
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| Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
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6:44 pm
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My birthday was Sunday and I'm offically 17! Whoo! Again. as usual I suppose come those ideas of self doubt.
There was a girl I knew when I was at achool in Barbados, called Robyn. Everyone knows her as Rihanna now, she's some big time singer now. She's no older than I am and look at all those acomplishments. I suppose that's what happens when you compare yourself to celebrities.
It was worse on Sunday, I'm over it now. Today's Michael Jackson's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!
Finally my sympathies to those in Mississippi (Elvis' home state) Louisiana and Alabama, and of course Florida. I hope you're all allright.
current music: Crazy For This Girl- Evan and Jaron
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| Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
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2:43 pm - Elvis
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For those of you who don't know, and shame on you if you don't. It's Elvis day. Today's the day he well, you know died.
I'm on a prayer and fast, since I couldn't make the pilgramage to Graceland. What being constantly broke and all.
I also made a banner of rememberance, but it won't upload. The devil's work obviously.
Last night one of my friends had the sheer gaul to insult Elvis saying that the only reason people liked im was because they had nothing better to do.
Haha. The funny part is that she still expected me to talk to her afterwards. She should have just insulted my mother.
I was raised on Elvis, and its fine if you don't share my obsession, but geez just have the respect to realise what he did for the musical community. Without him there would be nothing. He was the beginning, and there will never be anything like him again.
What's more is this girl can't sing worth a damn, she isn't fit to wipe dirt from Elvis' blue suede shoes. Who's gonna remember her in 20 years, that's right NO ONE! Respect that's all I ask.
current music: Teddy Bear- Elvis Presley
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| Tuesday, August 9th, 2005
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2:28 pm - Sunshine and Rainbows
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I am so completely bored. My cable is still out! Burn DISH NETWORK!!!
I got a new layout, I actually got a premade one, I used to be able to do graphics, but now they all suck, plus I'm so lazy now.
I wish I didn't get fired from my job. I need money to get myself a guitar. Pink, you know. And I'm 100 dollars short.
My parents are being losers, and have cut me off again. While my sister continues to get more money than me, from either the biggest hypocrites on earth or from a secret profession.
I wonder if she reads this. ROT SARAH! Where are those damn smilies? Bored...bored...
Winx Club sucks. Just a random thought I suppose.
current mood:  bored
current music: Tourniquet-Evanescence
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| Saturday, August 6th, 2005
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10:30 am - Play That Funky Music
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This is by far the worst summer in recent history. My cable's out...and the cable guy is 3 days late. Is he high? Doesn't he realise that my happiness and or sanity depends on how many channels I recieve!
After re-reading the HBP, I have decided I was too hard on J.K. The last two chapters more than compensate for the less than stellar writing talent. And I'll still buy the 7th any way.
I have decided that I'm going to start a band. Which is weird seeing as I'm the only one where I live who has probably ever heard of the stones...but never fear.
I am in the process of purchasing a pink guitar. Yes I'll be really hardcore with a PINK guitar.
My 17th birthday is rapidly approaching, and I think that I'll peirce something to celebrate.
Or maybe a tatoo...
current mood:  creative
current music: Three Small Words- Josie And The PussyCats
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| Sunday, July 31st, 2005
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1:14 am - Dear Mr.Potter
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Well, I have just completed the HBP, which is nerd code for half blood prince. I took me all of 10 hours, I am throughly disappointed for not making it in eight.
But I am not here to chat about the length of time my children. No! Instead I shall moan about who the book was. The fifth book was tedious, no going around it, I told us nothing that couldn't have been summarised in a book half that size, and took forever to read.
I had even contemplated buying the book for its jacked up price a few weeks ago. But my inner nerd won out.
The sixth book was better, but hey seeing as it couldn't be any worse...
I remember picking it up and going...did J.K let her kids go over this manuscript? I don't like the way its written. I've read things on fanfiction.net with more flair. The plot's okay, though killed with its stupid pacing.
The way Harry delt with his grief over Sirius killed me too. I expected some rage...or sadness, like we saw at the end of the 5th, but we just get some brief snippets of his grief, in retrospect, hich we never really see.
And of course there is the eternal 'why does EVERYBODY have to doubt Harry so much!' DUH after 6 years of this you'd start to trust his instincts a bit more...geez.
The fact is I miss the day when it was just me who loved this series. All those years ago, when I was the only one browsing the shelf for my favorite boy wizard. When there wasn't a movie, (and don't get me started on those)and there weren't sock and undies, just good old fashioned books, for people who just loved reading.
current mood: grumpy
current music: Pon De Replay-Rihanna
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| Saturday, July 2nd, 2005
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5:05 pm - Somethings Were Meant To Be
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I just realised how expensive college is. I know that it's been a kind of obvious but still it hits you like a ton of bricks doesn't it?
It's kind of sad, I mean it means that any idiot with a trustfund can get an education and those would be geniuses in the working class are for lack of a better word screwed.
I remember waitching this show on ABC, where they made some kids compete for a scholarship. I mean seriously, only ABC would make teens battle for their futures and dub it family entertainment, or heart warming. I'm not from the U.S.A originally, and so I was obviously surprised when these kids, the so called cream of the crop couldn't answer a simple question on where the dermis was in your body.
Great. Forgive me, today, I'm off my meds.
Another thing, what gives Tom Cruise the right to critise anyone about their decisions. I agree kids shouldn't be given perscription medications at such a young age, but goodness, when you're a danger to yourself, and to your family, you're supposed to say, heck, I know I want to kill myself, but these vitamins sure are yummy!
Just because it worked for you Tom, doesn't mean we're all born with that type of tolerance. On the rare occasion that you read this Brooke, your career is fine, if you made a movie, I jump to go see it. You so very talented, I've been in love with you since Blue Lagoon.
Gay marriage is legal in Canada, and I'm thrilled. I can't wait to move there, seems like a great place.
That was a good rant. Thanks for reading!
current mood:  morose
current music: Blue Suede Shoes-Elvis
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| Sunday, June 26th, 2005
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2:50 am - Taste My Soul
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I have absolutely nothing to say. My life is so dull that I can't even summarize today's happenings in a few sentences...
I read Harry Potter 5, for some reason, the book is by far the worst of the lot. Just getting pumped for book 6 I am.
Look I'm gone. I've got to learn to do these things in the day.
current mood:  working
current music: Hey Mama- Black Eyed Peas
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| Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
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2:20 am - Send Me The Postcard
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I noticed today that life is really too short. Seriously, I'm only 16 and I've noticed this little tidbit. We're all going to die. One day just keel over and whammo, that's it. All those little thoughts and crushes we have right now that are SO important, forgotten...forever.
Sucks, I know.
School's out for summer, though I am traumatised, I sat to watch some TV yesterday, and found I felt to guilty about not studying.
It's late and I'm, scared so I'm off. Night Sarah.
current mood:  blank
current music: Bounce-Fatty Koo
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| Thursday, May 12th, 2005
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2:38 pm - My King
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Last night instead of studying, I sat for two hours and watched, completely entranced, an Elvis Presley bio pic. I've always loved Elvis, since I was three, and if anything the film just fermented my affections. What really had me choked up was the final scene where the king was singing a song in his would be popular TV special.
The actor, Jason, I believe his name was, was absolutely dead on, his voice was so raw, and emotive, I started crying, and I never cry. I'm not one of those hysterics who sights Elvis at gas stations and such, but after last night, after seeing myself sob for a full fifteen minutes, who can really say that the King is dead?
current mood:  hopeful
current music: Hound Dog by Elvis Presley
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| Monday, March 28th, 2005
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1:09 am - Come Around
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I originally made this so I could shamelessly whine about a boy to people who didn't know or care about me, but now, I actually want to talk about something else.
My life is pathetic to say the least, I survive on fantasies and today was no different. I hate my parents and my life, my only solace lies in my pet frog Gregory.
Yes, I am a teenager and depression is my niche. Surprisingly though, I am obsessed with cartoons and avatar making...I like Will at the moment. From the seriously underrated Disney programme W.I.T.C.H. She has red hair, I had red hair once too, before it washed out.
current mood:  embarrassed
current music: hellfire, the hunch back of notredame
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